It sounds like your driver's license for revoked for life. A "lifetime" revocation means that your driver's license is "permanently" revoked. But, after the passage of time, you may be able to get your license back. A skilled attorney can review your criminal history and explain DMV's regulations to you, so you know when and how you can get your license back.
***This is NOT legal advice. For legal advice tailored to your situation, contact an attorney.***